We have been running around; passing documents back and forth with our social worker. We are writing additions to our report, editing the draft and then answering more questions!
Now it is almost D Day. The report is due in on Monday, if we stand a chance of getting to be seen by the panel in December to be approved and matched with Raina's sibling.
Having felt like all the hard work was done, being convinced not to worry..... Now we are beginning to assume the brace position as this could come to a grinding halt. For the last couple of months we have been feeling that the upcoming court hearing was our biggest hurdle. In terms of our report, we thought we were almost done and dusted. But right now; no one seems concerned by the court hearing. Everyone is now panicking about panel and scraping through that!!
This week (less than 5 days before our report should be submitted) we are told that the LA should have done another DBS (old school CRB check). They should have also done another medical check with our GP. Ok. Just a suggestion; but maybe, just maybe, this could have been done back in September when you started our new assessment!!! We are just hoping and praying that this doesn't delay our panel appearance.
We are crossing everything we can that everything works out for us next week and that we get to go to panel and be matched with sibling, so we can bring her home in time for Christmas.
Friday 22 November 2013
Monday 4 November 2013
Love
Love is a funny concept, for some it takes time to develop with adopted children, for some it may not come for a very, very long time. I know other adopters who have struggled with loving their child, wracked with guilt that they haven't necessarily felt the feelings they 'should'. Not unlike post-natal depression, I know that post adoption depression is a reality for some adopters. I feel like this isn't 'out there' enough in the public domain of adoption, nor is it a reality that adoption services tell you much about.
I was thinking of this today and thinking how lucky I am, how lucky we are. I loved Raina from the moment I met her. When I look at her photograph I can feel my heart fluttering and when we play together, or when she makes me laugh, I feel like I am really alive. Raina has been with us for 18 months now and my attachment to her grows deeper everyday.
At night sometimes, as I put her to bed, we jokingly say 'love you', to then reply, 'love you more!'. But the fact is; I do love her more. I love her enough for the both of us. She is always wondering when we will be sending her away, when we will reject her. This is shown out through her behaviour and attachment to us everyday. In terms if settling in, we feel a deep anxiety in her everyday. But everyday, she relaxes a teeny tiny bit more, cue the development of her love for us.
Raina is just amazing and we are so proud of how far she has come.
Just saying.......!
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I was thinking of this today and thinking how lucky I am, how lucky we are. I loved Raina from the moment I met her. When I look at her photograph I can feel my heart fluttering and when we play together, or when she makes me laugh, I feel like I am really alive. Raina has been with us for 18 months now and my attachment to her grows deeper everyday.
At night sometimes, as I put her to bed, we jokingly say 'love you', to then reply, 'love you more!'. But the fact is; I do love her more. I love her enough for the both of us. She is always wondering when we will be sending her away, when we will reject her. This is shown out through her behaviour and attachment to us everyday. In terms if settling in, we feel a deep anxiety in her everyday. But everyday, she relaxes a teeny tiny bit more, cue the development of her love for us.
Raina is just amazing and we are so proud of how far she has come.
Just saying.......!
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